Important Nonsense

I laugh much more now

I rarely feel like crying 

but when I do

the tears fall instead of welling up in my heart as anger

I'm less self conscious

less likely to pick at my own mistakes

I appreciate my oddity

instead of hiding 

I'm not ashamed of the things that matter to me

There's no need to be self conscious

in the gaze of your love

in the admiration of the children

I handle it all so well.

I don't remember a time that I've been this together

at peace with myself

instead of struggling, wondering, wishing

that I had some talent of another person

envious of another life, another past

It was all so exhausting

But everything is brighter

The little stresses are merely there

just another task

instead of a massive mountain never to be on the summit of

Now when I say that everything is possible

I actually believe it