It's Hard to Ask

I've been working on being assertive and being aware of my needs, but it's hard when it comes to actually saying what needs to be said.

I have been around people for days...every day, every night, my free time is mostly taken up by being around someone until the time I need to finish chores and go to bed.

Today, it took everything in me to tell someone, I need tonight to myself. 

Why is it so hard to be honest about such a small thing? I know I have trouble disappointing people, but to say that I want one evening after the kids go to bed just to myself--why is that so hard?

At least I did it. At least I'm moving in the right direction, but I'm amazed at how simple a statement it is, but how hard it felt.